A Prayer for the Waiting

How many of you all like waiting? I write about how in dealing with infertility, you are often stuck in two-week increments: two weeks to ovulation, two weeks of waiting. Repeat. Only, it isn't always so simple either--- long cycles or short cycles, closed clinics or other disruptions. But for 53 months I felt like I was endlessly waiting. It is exhausting. And even just waiting for a few days has gotten me this week. So I decided to write a prayer. For waiting, whether it is for election results, for a positive pregnancy test or a baby to be born, for a phone call with good news, for a new job, for a COVID-19 vaccine, for an end to suffering and abuse and bigotry...

God who wipes our tears away, intervene. The weight of waiting has left me spent, unable to focus. I have no control, no reasoning can get me out of this, and scrolling often makes it worse. I want you to swoop in and zap my struggles away. But you don't.

So instead, help me breathe. Teach me to rest when I can and give me strength to push through the exhaustion when I can't. May your Spirit inspire someone to bring me snacks in the meantime and maybe a little encouragement. For I am not alone. Open my heart to the possibilities of love and to the work for justice that can happen even in this place of waiting. Amen.