An Autumnal Prayer

I am not sure how much I'll be able to write this week. I thought after the election results came in, I felt relieved. I thought, even with the changes in plans because of the virus, I was excited for our long-awaited child's first birthday. And I do feel relief and excitement. But my body has still been holding so much stress--- one symptom of which is difficulty focusing to write. I continue to carry the stress of my ongoing grief, the stress of the state of the world, family stress, church stress. So today I have been praying and offer all feeling something off in their bodies this prayer:

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Spirit, blowing winds of change into our world and letting loose the leaves of the last year's experiences, I am being tossed around too, slipping under what I can't seem to let go of. The golden sunlight shines on me, sifting through so much beauty, but I am like those leaves, disconnected and dried out. And I am like the stark trees reaching up as though searching for comfort and finding only cooler skies. May I find rest even if I don't feel rooted. May my vulnerability be my strength. May your Spirit renew mine. Amen.